My beloved,
where are you?
How I have longed to know your embrace
my heart aching and raw
naked in the air.
The wind sighs
stinging my heart until it opens. I have been
waiting so long for you to arrive –
You must be somewhere.
I have flown to the stars in search of you –
I have laid beneath the moon waiting for you –
I have walked across the great rivers
and I have laid down inside of the granite mountains –
I have waited beneath the aspen trees
and I have curled up inside of the blue jay’s feathered breast.
I have trembled as the dewdrop in the morning light,
fragrant golden threads of your coming delight –
my toes curled around the leaves and the grass,
becoming covers of a soft mud nest.
I pray for you to find my heart
to bind me close into your arms.
Fallen sky I am like the springtime river.
The stories of life searching
to find your tender hand –
My beloved,
I offer you my all of my being.
I pour myself into your possibility
abandoned and free falling.
Your love is the sweetest milk
your blessings orange blossom and cherry –
A hummingbird arrives.
A quickening is upon us
as I descend into your light.
My heart is scarred. I am afraid. There were many
who were false and
proclaimed to be you
but, something inside of me
kept me from giving up hope.
I could never give up
until I found you again.
Is this really you?
This time I will trust.
I will not pull away again
as I have for so long.
Come my beloved
slip into my covers –
our souls will caress and hold each other now.
We are safe.
A red velvet box cradles our love.